Monday, November 29, 2010

Hidden Blade Retraction Mechanism

Wasting Time!

Good heavens, it's really true: the graphics of this blog is a bit disgusting and puts angoscia.Certo, it goes beautifully on my part that is troubled and desperately deep to write here!
MA, although this blog has not ever experienced in his life, I have another part a little more sociable and friendly!
and looks a bit, just today I had the wish to come here and kick my part very much hidden and write a speech a little less emotional and more fun! Why? Simple: I'm doing everything to avoid studying!
Come on, will soon begin, make myself a hot chocolate, a little bit and then I scriveggio immerse (as my professor said that bitch) in the studio! Yes, I have not misspelled, it is the one I'm sipping hot chocolate, I sfanculato my diet, so be the envy anorexic models to America's Next Top Model did not take me anywhere, and then I can not deprive me of my lifeblood that is chocolate, not until there is someone to cuddle in his place (I know that he will never come)!
Well, today is quite a good mood even though there are a billion reasons not to be, but November is ending, thank God! It 's been a month from most hated to the most loved, most hated and back to ! I love autumn, I do not doubt it, but this month just puts me in a bad mood, there's nothing I can do!
The school ... pff, I have to really talk about it? Goes wrong very badly, and soon there will be recommendations that will mark the end of me etc etc.. !
Love is as always a mess! There's this boy I like, that despite the thousands of plans made in order to finally know I have not ever saw for mezzosecondo! Destiny? Likely! And I admit that I still think so much of Nate and the whole thing in Australia, in short, how can I forget about it? My life was perfect there and I was happy!
Uhuh, how nice can say here freely without feeling that my eyes judge me! see? It 'nice to have a blog that nobody reads!
The friends are the only thing I'm not complaining, of course, all is well with Cles, and also with Simon, our famous love-hate relationship you say ended with a truce rather than peace, since we are talking about now everything and sometimes we go out together! I must say that I missed, and although I can not and will not trust her 100% is good value for what we have now!
Mariateresa & co are very sweet people, and even though I am locked out of my bloody anti-social, I feel good I just hope that is not a temporary thing! Lai
I miss so much, with the thousand things to do and nothing interesting to be told I never find time to make a phone call, but will make it soon! Then there
GiampĂ , I have not seen a life and I feel very little. Phew, but I have to do? I find myself so well with him, but I just can not find a little time to devote to him <.<
Beene ... After this I begin to think of being a bad friend! Luckily there are the songs of Christmas cheer me up morale! Yes, today I feel very Christmas and I look forward to the holidays arrive! I would like very much that this Christmas is memorable, I feel the warmth and affection, and then I would do lots of gifts to show that even I, after all, I am part of this family, or more generally lives of the people I love!
But how do I get money? I can not find a job, and given my poor grades in school, I begin to doubt seriously that I can find one that I will become rich because of my talents uu
not even have the money to pay for everything I have to pay , let alone to make gifts of at least remotely decent <.<
But now it is time to pull the hell, it's getting late and I still have not opened the book!
As the white rabbit: too late, too late!

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

6mm Polyp On Gallbladder

I could smell.

Cold shower?
No, worse: step back in time.
A simple, fucking song, and then returns it. The anguish, despair, the fear, the breath is lacking, the constant tears, the endless darkness, anger, especially RABIES. That damned angry that I was eaten alive, eaten, erased, filled with fear, upset. I had hit rock bottom, I was practically lying there crying. But the thing that I can never forget that tunnel was dark and dead, that sense of despair that the end had come but he could not give me peace. I think back to my bones, my flesh, as I had come to hate them because they were the only thing that kept me tied here. My bones, my lovely bones protruding. Think of the pounds lost, locked up in hell when me and the rest of the world could no longer see it. Resignation, I remember those songs played constantly full of anger, I remember my tears cold, my hands were frozen and all I felt cold even though we were in August. I remember the days unnecessary, the minutes still, my bed and my room were not mine, not mine anymore, simply because I was not there anymore. I remember the fear that I am petrified.
was hell, and I remember us back.
I'm afraid. I'm afraid of anything. I will not be affected. I do not want to be afraid. I do not want to remember. I do not want to suffer. I can not ... I can not let anybody near. I do not want no one beside me, because ... I'm afraid.